Monday, December 01, 2008

Endings and Beginnings

Day 104

I tried writing a summary of this blog and I gave up. It’s too long and unorganized. If someone else wants to – go for it. I can’t even read the whole thing.

From my experience, there’s one thing you must do to quit pornography. Find out why you look at porn and solve whatever it is. This isn’t as easy as it sounds. Figuring out what drives you to look at pornography might take months or years and even then you have to go about finding a solution and then successfully apply it.

This is what caused my desire for pornography:

  • Potential for having sex relatively soon (if I didn’t think I was going to get laid soon, my desire for porn sky rocketed)
  • Loneliness
  • Lack of relaxation (letting stress get too high = pornography)
  • Lack of fun (take your life too seriously = pornography)

I don’t think I could have done it without creating a journal. And another thing, most people don’t have enough desire to actually quit. Do some research on what drives you to complete goals and try to apply it to this because it’s not easy.

I don’t think I’ve won. I don’t think there really is any such thing as ‘winning’ when it comes to addiction. I think I’ve learned the tools to stop self-medicating through pornography but that doesn’t mean I won’t ever drop the ball. I believe that if I do look at pornography again, I’ll be able to come back and start my attempts at quitting again. I think that’s what’s important.

I’ll probably check in again once and awhile. I’ll definitely be back if I end up looking at pornography again.


  1. Amazing! I'm glad to see you made it to 100 days man. It's inspiring. I am starting yet another attempt tomorrow, but this time it will be accompanied by my blog: I hope you stay strong man.

  2. I'm glad to hear that you've had so much success recently. I just found your blog today and decided to start one of my own at I'm hoping that this will be an excellent tool for me as well. With your permission I'd like to post a link to your blog so that anybody visiting mine can find other success stories.

  3. I admire you soo much. This is amazing.

  4. Your amazing man... Keep posting about whats going on in your life / how your doing without porn!