Friday, November 21, 2008

Day 94

I've felt a little bit of urges for pornography tonight.

None of the girls I've met lately seem to be panning out so I feel kind of crappy.

At the same time I don't even take urges for pornography serious anymore. There's just no way that I'm going to break down and look after making it this far.

I really want to find a girl I get along with and have some sex for a change... its been way too long.

Blah blah blah...


  1. That's one of the many reasons why i'm still a porn addict. The way i see it is, why even bother if i never found anyone i liked. Like you, i did the dating thing but meh. It never really clicked. So it was much easier to skip all that and browse porn.

    On the otherhand, i want to be clean because not trying will not result in positive change. So conflicted.

    Please, don't go back to porn like you said. You made it this far, and by the looks of things you are getting stronger and getting back in the game. Sooner or later, there has to positive change..right? I hope you find someone, it would surely make me get off my ass.

    Rambling, goodluck man. Dont give up..coming from a hypocrite lol.

  2. hey just 6 more days to the day 100..!haha

  3. I just spent the entire afternoon reading your blog from start to finish, as well as some of your commenters' links. I'm sick of my lack of resolve in this area, and you've helped to inspire me to take this important step. I might have to start a blog as well. I'll be sure to let you know if I do. Since you are posting online, I am assuming you are up for constructive advice. I know I am. I am no trained psychologist, but it seems to me that your previous failures may have been caused in part by a subconscious desire to sabotage yourself. Anyway, my friend, you have only four days to go, and you are already 96 up on me. Above all, thanks for sharing. We learn from our successes and failures, and if we are wise, we can learn from others' as well.

    P.S. Eating a raw meat based diet makes it INCREDIBLY difficult to quit because of the increased energies one experiences, but I will, nonetheless, so help me God. I've modified one of my core behaviors already (, so I am confident that I am also ready to take this step.

  4. Thanks for the comments and support guys. Wow Mr Raw... I haven't even read my blog from start to finish lately. Thats a lot of reading.