Saturday, October 25, 2008

Day 67

Well today is a big day. My best attempt was 81 days without pornography and I've had two attempts come to an end at exactly 67 days. So if I make it through today then this will officially become my second best attempt.

I'm raising the stakes a little bit. If I open a pornography page, I'll give away $20.

My urges are strong. It's difficult to stay away from pornography. My main motivation is just avoiding the accountability I've set up. I don't want to get professional help and I don't want to give away any of the little money that I have.

I'm proud of myself for making it this far. I'm starting to feel like I'm moving forward and towards the life I want to live.

Again though... this is becoming a struggle.

The fact that I've been suffering from fatigue for the last few weeks hasn't helped.

Despite these challenges I'm thinking I'm going to make it to 100.


I haven't been pursuing girls lately. I don't have the energy for it.

2 comments:

  1. Good to see you are still going strong, staying in the fight!

    If money is a problem I invite you to get Covenant Eyes accountability software and join their hardship program. We offer it for free for those who can't afford it.

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  2. No but thanks for following and showing support. It means a lot.

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