Day 12

So my idea of going without masturbation this week didn't happen. Too much stress from having that date go down the drain... I feel like I haven' beaten myself up as much as I would have in the past and it was good practice keeping myself positive but I definitely felt stressed out this week.

Not much urge for porn today.

I meditated yesterday for 2 and a half hours at a park. It felt good.

Blah blah blah... I just want to go out there and find another girl and try dating again... it was exciting having a new person in my life and now that she flaked I feel bored in comparison.