Saturday, February 06, 2010

Day 12 I want to cave

I have no ability to look at pornography right now. I strongly want to. My urges are so strong that I can not resist. I want to cave RIGHT now. Again, I have no ability to look at pornographyso I just suffer the impatience and irritability.

My sex drive is huge. It's only day 12 and I'm experiencing symptoms I felt after months without pornography.

I can't help but look at girls on the street and I can't think straight sometimes.

I caught myself thinking that I have to get a way back into pornography or my sex life will be too boring. I caught myself thinking that I'll go crazy.

I don't know what else to say except that I'm thankful this is happening. Changing.

3 comments:

  1. maybe your just getting the shakes, man. I've seen people quit smoking, quit drinking, quit some other more serious shit and it's rough. The shakes, chills, headaches, nausea, etc...

    I'm not sure how that translates to quitting something like porn, as it's a psychological addiction moreso than a physiological one.. but eh. Maybe the same applies: once you get through the rough part, it's at least a little easier. Don't get me wrong, recovering alcoholics, smokers, and users still get cravings periodically, but at least it isn't a constant onslaught of strung-out vein-pumping one-track mindedness forever.

    It'll pass man, just ride it through. I'd prefer what you got to what happened to me this weekend: Depression and Erectile Issues

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