Day 60

So I went on a second date with this one girl I met. On both dates we ended up at her place, making out and feeling eachother up and both times we didn't go any farther than that.

I have a problem escalating sexually... When I escalate and a girl says no, I tend to stop and lose interest... instead of slowing down and going back to what I was doing before and then trying again later when she's more comfortable.

So I escalated and she said no and I tried to slow down and escalate again but I kept losing more and more interest.

I may not see her again. I feel crappy. Another thing is that I'm overworked right now, I haven't gotten enough sleep in the last few weeks, and I haven't had much time to just relax.

Making the decision to give away money for opening porn pages is definitely keeping my urges at bay.

Despite that incidence, I feel good about reaching day 60. It's been 2 months. I'm proud of myself.