Day 38

Man urges hit strong....

Last night I went to a porn site with images turned off on my browser and I ended up listening to a pornography video..

It's amazing how hard and fast urges can hit.... I'm impressed with myself for not actually looking at any videos but I don't want to even visit porn sites.

I found myself wondering whether or not I should just fantasize or go "just listen" to some porn... and it was laziness that lead me to choose the latter.

No more.... I'm not going to even visit porn sites... even if I don't see anything because images are turned off.. The definition of not looking at porn means no visiting porn sites all together...

Despite this set back, I'm starting to feel like I can do this... we're getting close to 40 days without viewing any pornography and I think I'm getting to the point where I can start to change my beliefs about my sex drive and how to deal with it.