Friday, June 06, 2008

Day 27 (73 days to go)

Damn, I'm almost to one month. I started on may 11. I've felt some urges recently to look at porn.

So today would be a good tday to go back and look at the 4 things that cause my urges for porn and summarize why I'm doing this.

4 reasons I look at porn.

1. Lack of friends - Recently I've become pretty close friends with an ex-girlfriend and that's been working out. I want to make some guy friends though and when I move in a few weeks I plan on joining a cycling/racing club.
2. Lack of fun - I'm working 2 jobs right now and that doesn't leave much time for fun.
3. Lack of relaxation -I'm not getting enough sleep, getting up at 6:30 and going to bed at 11:30. I'm used to 9 hours of sleep.
4. Lack of sex - I haven't had sex in a long time. I'm pushing myself to meet girls right now I've met quite a few this past month but I haven't gotten very far with them.

It's easy to see why I would be feeing urges. All of these areas of my life are being neglected right now.

Reasons why I'm quitting porn.

1. To realign my sex drive towards real women instead of the computer.
2. To motivate myself to seek out relationships (family/friends/girlfriends) instead of using pornography to soothe loneliness.
3. Because it takes up a lot of time and doesn't add anything of value to my life.

At about one month of no pornography, urges start to get a little stronger.

3 of my 9 previous attempts came to an end around 1 month. So It's really important that I monitor myself, reward myself, and remind myself why I'm doing this.

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