Friday, February 01, 2008

Seventh Attempt is Over

Yesterday stress got to me and my seventh attempt was ended. 32 days. That's the longest I've gone since my second attempt.

I knew I was being hit by urges but I put off doing some NLP to help fight my urges. That turned out to be a mistake.

I'm trying out a new job right now and its stressful. It's a great opportunity to learn how to deal with stress without using distractions and escapist tactics.

Even while I was looking at porn I was thinking about how unsatisfying it was. The first minute of looking at porn after taking a long break feels like a really strong high, kinda like gambling. But then it wears off fast and its just the same crap over and over again.

Despite this set back I'm making progress. When my other attempts ended I looked at porn multiple times but now I just looked at it during one session and I didn't go back.

Also I've averaged about a month between viewings and thats a huge reduction in the amount of porn viewed compared to years past.

This new job is going to teach me a lot about dealing with stress and I feel like my goal of going 1 year is completely feasible despite this mistake.

This time around, when I notice strong urges, I'll do NLP that same day to increase my drive towards going without porn.

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