Day 55

Weird new temptation for porn... It's not rooted in urges to look at pictures, it's an urge to relieve feelings of loneliness. Apparently part of me thinks that returning to porn will make me feel better. That's not true. I always felt empty after looking at porn...

On a somewhat related note, I made a committment to approach 10 girls today and I approached 1. I didn't feel that fear was the problem. I overcame the fear using some techniques I know but then I hit another mental block... a feeling that approaching girls is bad... that they didn't want to talk to me and that I would be bothering them.... or worse yet making them angry.

Logically I know this is crap. Girls give me good signals all the time; I have some sort of shame about approaching. This is going to get resolved ASAP. I don't put up with stuff like this.