I caved

I overworked myself and had a few bad days at work and my streak came to an end.

One good thing is that I didn't just overwork myself to the point of caving to pornography. I worked hard to a certain point where I felt some stress but not so much that I caved... It was the combination of having high expectations and then having a few things outside my control (like two aggravating days at work) to send me over the edge.

I think what this tells me is that its not enough to work really hard and relax just enough not to look at pornography because sometimes its not me and my own work ethic that causes stress. Sometimes things happen TO me that are really stressful and if I am already close to the threshold then I am gonna fall back into porn.

From this experience, I'd like to try an experiment. I want to find a way to do the things that I want to do without being anywhere near my stress threshold.

I want to narrow down exactly what I want and then find a way to put in action towards those desires without all the stress and forcing myself to do things that I don't want to do.