Thursday, May 15, 2008

Day 5 (95 days to go)

I'm starting to get urges to look at porn.

When I'm horny and I think about looking at porn, I get these glorified images in my head of how sexy it would be see some pornography.

I have to remember why I'm doing this. I want real relationships with women. I want to move away from using the computer as a band aide for loneliness. At the end of my life, I want to look back on all the relationships and interactions I've had with people, not a mixed up slump of memories of sitting in front of a computer screen.

I spent 47 hours online in this last 31 days. Thats 2 days of my month, looking at crap online. 7 hours of that was on pornography. Ideally, I'd like to spend 5 hours a month online and no time at all looking at pornography.

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