Day 11

Okay so here's what's going on. I've made the decision to just masturbate once a week and to not look at porn at all. Today is day 11 and I've followed these rules so far. With so little masturbation, my emotions are going a bit crazy but I'm more driven and I have more energy. I'm extremely horny. Little sexual comments made by female friends or sexy women on advertisements are actually interesting to me whereas normally I wouldn't care. Basically my sensitivity to sex has risen.

The upside to this is that I'm willing to take more risks to pursue women. Risks like rejection and humiliation (both of which are actually pretty funny once you go through with it).

The downside is that it is frustrating and you can feel a bit like losing your head and just going crazy.

I'm going to stick to this masturbation just once a week and no porn thing for 1 month. If I'm better off at the end of this month then I'll keep doing it. If not then I'll figure something else. So far not masturbating has given me the courage to seek out an ex-girlfriend and be friends with her which is really great. The downside is I want to bang her and that kind of screws with the friendship idea but as I start approaching girls that temptation will come down.

I've only approached 1 girl so far but today I want to go out and approach more. The hardest part is making the decision to do it. It's easy to make the mistake of making the decision to try but the truth is you have to make the decision to actually do it or it won't happen.