Tuesday, August 29, 2006

This addiction is only going to become more prevailant and detrimental.

It was suggested that I start a blog as part of the process in quitting porn. Maybe when or if I succede, my journal can be used as a learning tool in the future at which point I'm sure pornography addiction will be widely accepted as a problem.

It's Tuesday the 29th. Today I broke down for the 4th or 5th time since taking a serious attempt at quitting a few months back. I know I've been trying to quit off and on for over a year now.

Anyways the only steps I've found are the following:

Delete it all off your computer.


Accept it's your fault you are into porn.

I have no objection to that. It's my fault.

Read christian anti-porn websites

I've tried this in the past and I can't stand reading that garbage. Specially the stuff about how I'm powerless. BS

Find other outlets for your energy.

Done. Meditation, working out, exercising, plus other goals like school etc.

Avoid the temptation

Okay, I found a free porn blocker called Blue Coat k9 web protection. I have to type a password to see sites that aren't rated G. I made the password "beamanquitporn" and that's helped somewhat. I'm going to cut down on my computer time. I have a sophisticated word document with all kinds of goals on it that I use every day so I guess I'll look at it in the morning and write down whats important and leave the comp off the rest of the day. If the comp is off, I don't know what else i can do to "avoid the temptation." I should probably tell a friend about this and have support.

Blog it.

I'll post everyday.

Here's some info I learned from an NLP book.


  1. The desirability of the outcome.
    1. Statement: “the goal is desirable and worth it.”
  2. Confidence that the specified actions will produce the outcome
    1. Statement “it is possible to achieve the goal through these actions"
  3. The evalutaion of the approprateness and difficulty of the behavior
    1. Statement: “What has to be done in order to achieve the goal is appropriate and ecological.

  4. Belief that one is capable of producing the required behaviors necessary to complete the plan leading to the outcome.
    1. Statement: "I'm capable of performing the behaviors leading up to the goal."
  5. the sense of responsibility, self worth and permission one has to relation to the required behaviors and otucome.
"I'm responsible for completing this goal and I deserve to reach this goal."

Okay number 1, pornography takes up my time, depletes my energy, and leaves me feeling empty. I know I feel better when I'm free from it so therefor I believe quitting is a worthy goal.

Number 2, I believe that if I adhere to the rules I've outlined that I will succede.

Number 3, I believe that performing the rules outlined above are reasonable.

Number 4, I believe I'm capable of adhering to the rules.

Number 5, I'm responsible and I deserve to be free from porn.

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