Okay I've finally felt some strong urges for pornography since starting this attempt to quit.
There was nothing I could do, the computers were locked and I had to just ride out the temptation.
I feel like staying off the computer except to check my mail, account balances, and small things like that every 2-3 days is a much healthier life style than what I was experiencing before.
That's all for now.
Sunday, May 02, 2010
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I'm glad to hear you're doing well this time around. I recently made the decision to drop internet porn as well. I have been 40 days now without watching. After 21 I bought myself a $21 bottle of beer. It was amazing. I'm going to continue to set markers and rewards. I get a reward at 50 days, another at 100, another at 200, another at 500, and so on and so forth. Each day gets easier because I think about the goal of getting to the next reward and how that gets smashed if I ruin it.
ReplyDeleteOne thing I'd like to point out is that you keep using language that promotes your own failure at quitting. 'Attempt' means you are trying. I defer to Yoda - do or do not. And your blog title. You can't quit something if you keep going back to it. You either quit or you don't. Calling your current state an 'attempt' is not quitting. Eventually the PC has to come back on. When it does, if you view this an attempt, you'll be right back at watching. My PC has been on for 40 days. I haven't screwed up yet.
I have to say that your blog has been an inspiration so far. This is a hard thing to do and it's nice to know that there are others out there like me that struggle with this. I've wasted so much time in the past, browsing the web, downloading stuff, collecting, categorizing, etc. But an addiction means it's never enough. I've broken the addiction and I demand of myself no screw-ups. I hope you do, too.